in mourning

My mother passed away September 25th. I am still not sure how to feel – it’s a mix of sadness, acceptance, grief and some anger. I am told that is normal.

My father died nine years ago, and in some ways, I’ve been anticipating my mother’s death since then. But there is so much to handle – not just the feelings, but the funeral, the estate, care for my sister and my nephew who are mentally disabled, and the household belongings and photographs, etc. It is a lot of details. Also handling the bills before the settlement company kicks in, and the legal end of things.

So I am in a mix of emotions and dealing with a lot of loose ends. I have already decided I will simply sell everything before I go, put it all into a trust and save my kids all this trouble.