For me, it is not so much a matter of frailty, as of loving others too much. I confused the love I felt for friends with something more.

I don’t think that, in another type of society, I would be a monogamous person. I simply have too much capacity for love and too little jealousy for that. I don’t live in a society that appreciates the polyamorous nature, though, so I have to limit my feelings. When I haven’t I’ve gotten hurt and hurt others.

I truly feel that we are all one, and one with everything, and these artificial walls of separation are the root of almost every problem. We think we are different from others, but we are not, we are the same. Denying this leads us to feel superior, or inferior, to cast blame and to spurn those who are different from us. One of my fantasy stories I would love to write one day is about someone dying and as they do they relive their life – but through the eyes of all those they have interacted with. To see ourselves as others see us, is, I think, the piece that most of us are lacking. I know all those who hold grudges against me would melt in a moment if they could see themselves the way I do, with all the love I hold for them. I hope that for you, your wife will come to that point and find her forgiveness.

Namaste.

Thanks for sharing your story

Sometimes I wonder if all the time I spend doing this is worthwhile, so I really appreciate it when someone says what I’ve written has meant something to them. I love all of your blogs as well, and really feel sometimes like my best friends are those who are online. Perhaps it’s just easier to share some things with strangers than with the friends who sigh and say, “yes, I KNOW how you feel!” when I start in. ;^)

Yes, there is hope for our country. People are strong and countries, like people, do recover from these unfortunate times. Financially most of us are (or think we are!) still in good shape, although many are not. I think the desire of the truly religious to see a more righteous country is not entirely a bad thing, although they are misguided about where those ideas need to be applied, mainly to our leadership and not to our people! Perhaps they are beginning to catch on to how badly they’ve been used.

Even the rich can’t be entirely faulted, acting in their own best interests if not the country’s. Even they have been used and abused by short-sighted, small-minded leaders. I hope they will begin to change, as some have, and become the philanthropists and givers we so desperately need to see.

Those I have no use for are the users and abusers themselves, and I can only hope we turn away from the dark path we are on and are willing to stand up to them and throw them out or better, in jail for their crimes. I have no hopes that the top leaders will get the fate they so richly deserve, but they are Tao’s to deal with. Somehow Tao always comes up with a far more just fate for people than I could ever imagine or wish for myself. One boss I particularly loathed mysteriously developed an aneurysm the week after I was laid off. It surprises me to see what Loki dreams up for the worst offenders. Creating truly horrible Karma for oneself is always a bad idea, as I’ve found out from my own experiences.

Treat others well in life – you never know what will come back to haunt you! (Especially this time of year – thanks for the Samhain post, Nickie!!

Here’s to living the best life we can.