Monthly Archives: June 2003

Sony

Well, turns out Sony wanted me to start Monday but I’ll have to put them off til Thursday to finish up at the Red Cross and make sure Jonathan gets his community service hours in. Off to lunch soon with Gale to thank her for forwarding the email message that got me the gig. The least I can do….

'cause it's summer….

Summer starts tomorrow, but you wouldn’t know it from the San DIego June gloom. It is especially thick today, with drizzle. At least the plants are getting wet. The roses will probably rust again and slow down their blooming. Hopefully this will lift soon and everything (including me) will be happier in the sunshine. Until it gets too hot, and we actually start missing this cool weather…

Did my drug test and started the background investigation for Sony. HOpe they don’t take too long. At least it gives me a few more days at the Red Cross next week. I can take Jonathan with me and get his community service time in for his health class, so that will be good.

Gardening…

Weeded the veggie garden and planted some new stuff – peppers and onions and beans. We’ll see what grows. The roses are getting back into the swing of things with more heat now, the buddleias are blooming, and the lilies are gorgeous…

Meetings and interviews…

Well, I have a meeting tomorrow with a “headhunter” and an interview next week with Sony – I’m looking forward to seeing what happens!

Volunteering at the Red Cross has been kind of fun this week – it’s helping me get over my “phone phobia” and it does make me feel better to be helping someone else out. And it’s such a good cause…

Reading…

Reading Kay Redfield Jamison’s An Unquiet Mind” and “Breaking the Patterns of Depression” and “Undoing Depression“. It does seem to help me understand this isn’t just something I’m going through but that lots of people go through. One in eight people will be treated for depression at some point in their lives, and one in ten is being treated at any point in time. So it is pretty common, really.

The bipolar aspect is really the newest thing I have to deal with, though. I was never “over the top” manic until last year, so never got diagnosed as bipolar before. Looking back, I see other times in my life I’ve been hypomanic, so it has probably always been there to some extent. Anyway, I seem to have a good balance right now with the lamictal, which is making me feel much better, and the Welbutrin for the depression. We’ll see if things continue to get better. I hope so…

red cross volunteering

First day volunteering at the Red Cross – mostly answering phones and stuffing envelopes, but it was ok. I still feel a bit down afterwards, though. I guess that is just the chemical cycle I am in. Wish I could find something that really made me feel good and like I was accomplishing more. I am annoyed at myself for not bringing in any income, which would really help out right now, and that doesn’t help my mood.

Did quite a bit of gardening yesterday, and it looks a lot better. I was able to get into a flow for a while, but it still doesn’t seem to lighten the dark mood that I am still fighting off. Everyone says I’m doing better, but part of me just doesn’t feel it. Oh well. Keep going and keep trying new things, I guess.

Just because it's June…

Hard to believe it is already June. Time is flying by for me lately, even though the days individually seem to go so slowly and are hard to get through. Well, perhaps the volunteer thing will help me feel better about myself and what I am doing instead of just focusing on what I am not doing. Sometimes I want to be working so badly and other times I feel so badly I don’t know how I could be working. It’s very confusing.