red cross volunteering

First day volunteering at the Red Cross – mostly answering phones and stuffing envelopes, but it was ok. I still feel a bit down afterwards, though. I guess that is just the chemical cycle I am in. Wish I could find something that really made me feel good and like I was accomplishing more. I am annoyed at myself for not bringing in any income, which would really help out right now, and that doesn’t help my mood.

Did quite a bit of gardening yesterday, and it looks a lot better. I was able to get into a flow for a while, but it still doesn’t seem to lighten the dark mood that I am still fighting off. Everyone says I’m doing better, but part of me just doesn’t feel it. Oh well. Keep going and keep trying new things, I guess.